This Full Moon in Scorpio is about confronting some of our deepest wounds and traumas and transforming them into something positive. I've often described the darkness that lies within us as our own personal dragon that we must fight and slay. I now realize that there is more to this than just slaying the dragon, i.e. facing and overcoming our personal inner demons, and then simply moving on. No, we are meant to make good of this "dragon" by transforming what it represented into something we can work with that is healing not just for us but for others as well. This can be likened to transforming Maleficent the Dragon from Disney's Sleeping Beauty into Puff the Magic Dragon or Pete's Dragon. It's an energy similar to the Strength card in the Tarot, but instead of taming the lion, we are taming the dragon. Our perceived weaknesses and former injuries can then become our greatest strengths. Furthermore, when you are no longer have to fight the dragon because you've tamed it, you free up energy reserves that you can employ elsewhere to accomplish other great feats.
Following the weekly reading for the week of April 25 - May 2, 2017, in which I had stated that, karmically, in each lifetime we are only given as much as we can handle; neither too much nor too little, just the right amount, one of my viewers asked if people who commit suicide were indeed given more than they could handle and caved in under the stress. Not knowing anyone who has committed suicide, I do not have second-hand knowledge of what drives a person to suicide, though I myself have at my darkest hours felt that it might be the only way out. Personally, I don't consider suicide a solution, but I try not to condemn anyone who has chosen this type of exit because, even though there may not always be a way out, there is usually still a way through. I have read reports where survivors of suicide attempts knew that it was a mistake the moment they, e.g., jumped off the ledge. Therefore it seems that suicide is primarily an act of desperation where the person did not find the right kind of help for their problem, though there are certainly other causes and reasons for suicide as well. In most cases, the person who attempts to commit suicide sees no other option or alternative, or perhaps their pain feels so great to them that they want relief from it and view killing themselves as the only end to their trauma. I do believe that everyone who successfully commits suicide was meant to do so because everything that happens happens exactly as it is supposed to. Many people, spiritual and non-spiritual alike, view suicide as a type of selfish and/or weak cop-out, with those who are more spiritual believing that the soul will need to come back and re-face the same issues. I, however, view suicide as a natural, albeit unfortunate, part of life, the lessons from which are not necessarily meant for the suicide victim but for those close to them who are being "left behind." And yes, some of the souls will very likely face similar issues in subsequent lifetimes as it may be their soul's journey to eventually overcome them.
While meditating today, I had the most profound experience. Oftentimes, I pull cards for myself in the morning to see how the day will either go or what I can look forward to or what energies I can work with. The card I pulled today from Doreen Virtue's Healing with the Angels Deck was Spiritual Growth, and it didn't take me long to experience it; in fact it helped tie together many of my recent messages, channelings and insights. At the start of the meditation, I sought out communication with my angels, or, as I like to call them, my support network. Almost immediately, I internally chuckled at that thought and told myself I was actually connecting with my higher self. That's when, as the Germans like to say, "der Groschen fiel," the English equivalent being, the light bulb went on. It then simply made sense and I knew that I was in communication or in touch with myself, myself being everything and one with the universe. Earlier this week, I had pulled message no. 184 from my book Inner Wise which talked about balance resulting upon realization that we are everything and one and one and everything and that we would see this in peaceful, calm moments (such as meditation). In other words, though we often view ourselves as individuals, we are actually one with the rest of the universe. Though the individual expression might be different at times, we are one great energy; one great light. Therefore, tapping into the universe is tapping into oneself; and vice versa, tapping into oneself is tapping into the universe. We carry all universal knowledge and answers within ourselves. We just have to get to a place of calm to access them. We also have all the powers of the universe within us. It then became clear to me that I am one with everyone and everything else as well, confirming one of the energies I had identified in the current weekly reading - that as a result of Saturn going retrograde and Venus going direct in their square, we would be focusing less on our differences and more on what we have in common. Now I know as well that the angels are just an extension of me and that I am an extension of them. They are me, and I am them. In some ways this is a humbling realization, and I have to admit, I'm having a hard time grasping the implications of it because it goes against much conventional thought and theory and seems pretentious and almost like blasphemy. It's very revolutionary, but I wouldn't expect anything less with all the current Uranus energy activation. In the 16th century, many Protestant religions initially left the Catholic faith because people were awakening to the fact everyone could experience God for themselves and didn't need a church to access him. I'm not sure if any of them would have gone so far as to espouse however, that each of us can also say, "I am God."
One of the primary themes of this New Moon in Libra is the restoration of relationship harmony. The universe will help create the scenarios, but you also need to do your part. In addition to forgiveness which is the letting go of grievances or perceived wrongdoings against you, I have channeled two additional actions that will help bring about an energetic shift that will both prevent negativity from becoming entrenched and gradually help remove deep traumas bit by bit as they are replaced by the new energy that is establishing itself. Please make note that these can apply to any area of life and not just interpersonal relationships. Firstly, look for the positive in any situation, and yes, it is there. Once you find it, choose to feel gratitude for it. In my case I often blame my parents for my childhood traumas that I am still working through. I focused on the negative and that is all I saw or felt. However, I am very lucky in that my parents have the financial means to help support me while I heal. Of course, I could say that if it weren't for their dysfunction in the first place, I wouldn't be needing the healing now! It could be worse though. It could have been that my parents weren't as well off as they are now, and I could be in the same place, needing to heal, but without the financial support. Therefore, I am now grateful that my parents have the means to unburden me of money worries while I heal. So, whatever the negative situation, find the positive and make a gratitude statement. Secondly, understand that you chose the situation. You are the co-creator. Now, personally I don't believe in the concept of free will as it is often described in the spiritual community - that we make and determine our future through our decisions. For me, our role as co-creator was deciding how we wanted this life to be like and what lessons we wanted to learn from it before we incarnated into it. Everything that is taking place now is actually scripted. If it were any other way, the entire system would collapse, and the reason for that is, time does not exist; everything is playing out simultaneously. If we had free will, it wouldn't work. There is something very peaceful and reassuring about knowing that as this realization helps eliminate our resistance to what is and allows us to be accepting of it, and as a result, we are no longer, or at least less, angry at others for simply playing out their roll, or rather, their pre-scripted parts. In summary, the best ways to contribute to relationship harmony and heal in the process are to forgive, feel gratitude and know that everything is being playing out exactly as it is meant and supposed to.
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